Some nine years ago today, I was told I had a name a before my name, and that name is [Kai].

What's in a name?

Absolutely nothing.  Its what's happened around it.  Its the fact that it happened nine years ago.
Its haunted me for nine years.  How I've barely breathed a word to anyone about it that time.
How it seemed like just a brain fart and strange recurring thought.

But nine fucking years later, I can't ignore it, finally because of something that happened at
martial arts class today.  Its total nonsense.  But it happened, and it feels right.  I hate saying
that, but not everything in life is guided by the rational.

I came to class and it was a full on thunderstorm.  We train outside in the park, so nartually 
all the sane people (including my teacher) weren't there.  The senior student texted me saying to 
go home.  I didn't even consider it.  I trained out in the pouring rain and thunder and lightning for
two hours.

During the opening standing meditation I stood in front of a giant oak tree to try to get out of the rain.
3 minutes in, I hear a bird yelling to my right, getting louder.  And louder.  Sudennly a giant ass hawk
is chasing a small songbird at high-speed passing right between me and the tree, about a 2 foot gap.  Scared
the shit out of me.  He landed on the fence some 15 feet away and just looked at me, "What the fuck man."  
I startled him enough that the bird got away.  Smart bird.

The class is shrinking.  But my practice is growing.  Its time to build my legacy.  The next place I live 
will be a place where I can set up everything I need to become the total Warrior.  To bring peolpe in,
to teach, share.  To become [Kaiden].

I haven't earned the right to go by the name yet.  And this is just a dream, a vison.  It means nothing.
Its less than nothing, its dust in the wind.  Dreams are made real by boring, tedious, sometimes awful
hard work.

We shall see.